what now?

This has been a rough week. Haven't talked to boyfriend much in San Diego. The emails I did get from him was talking about things not going well on his current job.

I sent him an email last night about how helpless I feel to not be able to do anything to make him feel better. And I fear that
I'm coping with the loss by "distancing" myself. The distance means that I'm not caring as much about him.

He sent me an email early this morning and said he'd call to talk about it. Tried to call before I turned my phone back on, and didn't leave a message, but tried again and I answered.

He said he's not giving up on us. He asked me not to either. A lot of "wish I could be there to help you this weekend," etc.

*sigh*

Obviously I care about him (otherwise, this would be easy). But I don't feel a lot of comfort from his call. It's almost as if I need time to think about things. Which, ironically, I do have.