blue day

I thought that my new version of birth control was supposed to keep me from being an emotional wreck. Today is one of the days I'm doubting that.

First, I found a gray hair. A real one on my head by my two eyes. *sigh*

Then I've been missing boyfriend. Haven't had an email from him since Sunday when he told me that our Memorial weekend plans were changing destinations. I asked "where?" and hadn't heard back. So I finally texted him with a "miss you" so he could call me when he had a chance. Finally figured out where we're going, but he's not going to be here long, and our alone time is going to be pretty non-existant.

Then I check my bank account today since this is when I get paid. Sure enough, got paid. But I'm off by $0.09 So in cross referencing my online statement to my checkbook, I account for 5 of the missing cents (mis-entries on my part I'm sure), but can't figure out the remaining $0.04 I almost start to cry at this moment.

So instead I took a deep breath, added the $0.04 to my latest gas purchase to get my balance to even out. I'm not going to worry about 4 missing pennies.

I'm just happy I got paid today. I can finally start working again on my savings. And I get a second paycheck Friday for the work at the hardware store.

But it's not making me very happy. I hope it's just because I'm tired to the point of wanting to burst into tears at a simple "hello". I truly hope it isn't because of the birth control horomones.