Withdrawl

Okay, I had never been very comfortable in sexual relations. My first encounter was with someone that had to notch his bedpost. So I think it lowered my self esteem in that aspect.

Plus it was never very enjoyable. So I put up with it to please the guy.

However, a year ago when I was setup with boyfriend, it was different. For starters, I felt completely comfortable with him, and he did things to prove to me that while he wanted to jump my bones, he wouldn't do anything until I said it was okay.

So now because of him, relations in the sack are incredible. I miss it terribly when he's off on a job working impossibly long schedules that prevent us from getting together.

I haven't seen him in a month. Tomorrow morning, I'll be heading out to see him. I couldn't sleep well last night because I kept hoping that it was early Saturday morning, and what I'd be doing to him when I see him again.

Of course, I work in a lab of guys. Two are married with children, but the single postdoc sure is looking attractive. And the more I think about boyfriend, the harder it gets to contain myself.

Considering our latest department scandal involves sexual harrassement, I'll have to settle for taking cold showers downstairs.