Yeah me!

I've been a contact and support person for the pain listserv. Specifically if people are seeking answers and information on the motor cortex stimulator procedure since I went through it almost three years ago now.

Then I got hooked up with a group that is gathering information and experiences. I put my story out there, and left myself available if someone had questions. They mentioned that they were going to the trigmeinal neuralgia conference in Portland in September, and if I could come, they'd like to meet me in person. They're going to have a session at the conference speaking about their experiences and such.

Now I've been invited to be one of the speakers on the panel.

I still haven't decided if I'm even going to the conference. I have a friend that moved there a few months ago, so it'd be a good excuse to have dinner with him and his lovely girlfriend. Plus, boyfriend thinks he'll be in Seattle for a job around the same time, so he'd try and come for a day.

So I have some good reasons to go. Yet there's a small part of me that doesn't like to dwell on my past experiences. I don't want to get in the habit of thinking that I still live in pain everyday. I suppose they'd say that you can't move past the experience if you can't look back on it without fear.

Should I stay or should I go?